...DREAM...

I was dreaming last night
I met someone
In a very quiet place
It was a beautiful place indeed
I was wondering who's that person
I never met him before
Wondering... wondering and keep wondering...
'till I was so tired
Now, on this beautiful Saturday morning
I try to figure out, to find
who the person in my dream was
still in my curiosity...
but
suddenly I stop wondering
I am completely stupefy
when I saw someone's profile
in front of my eyes
on my computer
He is the man in my dream last night
who touched my heart by his words
who could wrote lovely words in his blog spot
I don't even know who he is
but his words
could make my heart beating
could make me write this words
could make me see how beautiful life is,
to have someone
someone like him
someone who could make people believe
that there is still kindness in human being
as his best friend said in his testimonial
I believe to know him as a friend
is one of MIRACLE in me...
Hey Mr. Sometimes, would you be my friend?

...STILL...

After many years,
finally I saw him in front of the sacred place
He was standing there,
raised his right hand and called my name
God... What is he doing there, I said
I miss him so bad for years
I miss his voice
I miss the way he talked to me
I miss the time he strengthened me
I came to him and he was standing there,
un moving...
and telling me he has got someone with him
and introducing her to me
and leaving me without any blame
but,
I love him, still...

...MY LIFE...

My life is the gift from my loving and faithful God.
Today I recollect all His gifts to me, what He has
done for me, and I realize that none of what has been
happening to my life that He didn't see with His own
eyes. And now, as it always be,I recognize how
precious I am in His eyes.

Too many things have befallen in my life since I
committed my self to be His devoted pupil. There were
times when I crossed His path but He's constantly
brought me back to Him. With all the things He has
permitted to occur in my life, I've been transformed
and made to a more steady and mature state. And I
believe, from all things that's happening in my life,
that there's red and unbreakable line that connect
them all one by one proving that I am being perfectly
shaped through each my experiences

In times of happiness, He is there with me. In times
of trouble, He is also there for me. In facing all my
problems, He is there, and always be there, to help me
resolve them. In times of despair and solitude, He
accompanies me through them. He is caring. and I
always have a special place in His heart in whatever
state I'm in. He's always be my Father, a loving
Father who is continually showering me off with His
great and undying holy love and affection, His loving
child.

I have passed through some cycles in my life. When I
fell or lost in dark alleys, I could still hear His
gentle words, "My child,I am your God, I will always
be faithful waiting for you here. And I am still and
always be loving you." His voices were all the time
heard and touched my heart when I was down in sins.
His voices made me strong in His presence and raise
from my falls.

With His great invaluable gifts and blesses to me,
I've been motivated to give Him the best of me. I want
to see the world and look for what I can do for the
world so that the world may accept Him. There is one
important thing that I will always remember: "He
doesn't give His life for unworthy things. He didn't
come to my life and my heart for something
unworthy...He didn't come to this world and died in a
cross only just for me, His child, but also for
everybody, everybody who hardly knows Him at all."
However, the fact remains whether the world knows it.
But, how can the world learn about Him if I, one of
His loving children, do not act and behave as a true
christian? I am always busy with my bussiness. I did
learn a lot about the truth, but sometimes the truth
does not bring effect to the unbelievers. Sometimes I
remember that I have learned a lot yet I do not color
other people with what I've learned. I have to learn
more to make me salt and light of this world.

I want to prove Him how much I love Him. I want to
show the world that I really love Him, nevertheless, I
know that my love to Him needs to be proven. I hope
that my faith can make me do all these things. I
really want to show the world that I, His loving
child, act, behave and have the personality as a true
christian....
Is there anything better than to give HIM the
best?
--End of words

One moment in time, May 1999
Ray, thanks a lot for helping me on this

...HE...

From the very beginning,
He has been choosen for me
He belongs to me forever and...
He will never be taken away from me
He will always in my heart
He will alway be faithful and...
He will never forsake me
Sometimes my attitude make him sorrowful
A lot of times
I denied his presence in my heart
A lot of times
I hurt his heart by bringing other things
and doing something
that makes him feel betrayed
A lot of times I do it, but...
He, faithfully, is still waiting for me

Pangkalan Jati, October 23, 1995